Thrill seeker

I was reading this article the other day. You can check them out here. It's about why you should date a guy who travels (traveller, not tourist).  Anyway if you read the comment section below, a lot of travellers claimed that the article was overrated.  Though it may seems that travellers make a good partner, they claimed that it was hard to sustain a healthy relationship because they are always looking for new adventures. They are always looking at the map instead of what they have; be it a 'real' job, a 'real' life. They do not want to be binded by these routine.

I'm not very much of a traveller, but I always look for new challenges and adventures in life. It doesn't have to be about exploring new places, instead it can be about exploring new ventures and possibilities. For me, it's an objective based game. And like any other objective based game, it's more about the short term goals rather than the long term goals. I'm not downplaying the importance of a long term goal, but to me long term goal is kinda hard to measure.

Almost six years ago my long term goal was to graduate with a bachelor degree. Yeah, I probably would be able to make them even more specific so that it can easily be measured, say, 'graduating with a degree with at least 3.5 cgpa'. But such void between the day you started until the day you finished is too long for me to be able to tell. Hence the short term goals. Get a diploma first. Get a scholarship next. Then apply for first degree. And of course along the way, you'll found new adventures to be conquered. Like 'winning a futsal tournament', or 'undergo the perils of taking a difficult major' or 'get to be in the student representative council'.

Some of these were proactive goals; they came with a deliberate plan, while some of them were reactive goals, hence, an unplanned ones. Every time when I felt that the current adventure is losing its thrills, or perhaps I was getting good in that challenge, I began to look for another one. When I began my finance major studies adventures, I was scared shitless that I wouldn't be able to beat it. Yeah I was struggling but after a year, I managed to get the hang of it. So I went back playing futsal for the varsity. But yet I still felt some kind of void and so I decided to take on a new adventure; participating in the student representative council election.

No, this post is not about how high and mighty I am at conquering these adventures. Because it came with a price. I got so drawn and blinded by new adventures sometimes I got detached from the routines; the 'real' job and the 'real' life. Instead of thinking about what I have, I am thinking of the next adventures and how I can beat it. If what I have is in the way of me beating that new challenge, it is likely that I'll discard it. Probably why I kept screwing something good that happened in my life. Looking over at my life, one might say that I gained a lot, but trust me, I lose a lot more.

And now I am about to embark on a new adventure. Internship. This would be a great challenge for me. For the first time in six years, I'll be away from Penang, away from my family. This is probably the greatest challenge I had in a while, and I started to get detached from my routine as I am getting immersed and pumped up on getting this challenge done. The greater the challenge, the greater focus that I need to put on, and the more likely that I'll lose something along the way.