Bad Luck Brian

Minggu ni ada dalam 2 ka 3 ka event yg student uni aku buat. Tapi it's not about the events that matters. It's rather sapa yang depa panggil untuk majlis tu. Minggu ni banyak jugak celebrity yang mai usm untuk memeriahkan majlis. Aznil, Najwa Latif, Anwar Hadi and Imam Muda Fakhrul to name a few. Semuanya datang untuk events atau acara yang berlainan. 

Lani student macam dah ketandusan idea dalam pengisian atau intipati setiap acara atau majlis yang depa buat. Kot celah mana pun, depa mesti nak associate hiburan atau celebrity dalam event depa. No matter how noble the cause, there's always room for entertainment. Macam Karnival Kesukarelawan. A noble cause and a splendid campaign which were then closed by Najwa Latif. 

I'm not against anything here. Aku cuma risau yang a great cause akan tenggelam di sebalik keghairahan nak tengok retis. Or a suck ass cause yang berlindung di sebalik keghairahan nak tengok artis. A mediocre cause, tapi sebab ada celebrity that mediocre cause is rather forgiveable, thus orang pun mai  ramai-ramai memeriahkan majlis. 

I'm not against the idea of menyelitkan elemen hiburan dalam mana-mana majlis sekali pun. Even Harun Din pun melawak juga masa dia bincangkan kitab fikah mazhab syafie. Even PMIUSM pun panggil diyana amir untuk salah satu talk depa. As long as the cause is good, it's fine. Tapi kalau the cause is mediocre macam mana?

Balik-balik nak buat talk tajuk cinta. Balik-balik nak buat teater genre lawak bodoh. Balik-balik nak buat kempen parti politik ni best dan kami menyokong penuh usaha pakcik ni sekian-sekian. Sebab apa, sebab cause-cause macam ni yang dapat sambutan. Cause-cause macam ni yang orang nak. Takdak orang nak buat teater klasik yang tak lawak sebab nanti takdak orang nak pi. 

Ubah sikit mentaliti kita. We should have a more refined taste. A more refined thinking and mentality. Awat aku rasa macam aku dah pernah tulis dah pasal ni eh? mungkin dah pernah tulis kot. 

ok scratch that. TUJUAN utama aku tulis ni bukan sebab aku kisah pasal mahasiswa dan masa depan negara pun. Nor about our degrading mentality. Aku cuma tulis ni nak habaq, kalu nak panggil retis, panggil lah Nora Danish. Tak pun SNSD. Tak pun Uma Thurman.

Sempena Pilihanraya

Stanford Prison Experiment. It rivalled all social psychology experiment in controversy. Explains the nature of people's conformity, compliance and obedience. I studied a Zimbardo's textbook in one of my course and I find this very intriguing.

Out of the comfort zone

Been a tough week. I had two mid terms and another two coming up next week. To top that I haven't started doing any five of my assignments yet. Great job. And yet aku nak jugak main futsal even though I vowed to take a break after liga ipt finished. Tomorrow Im going to kampus kejuruteraan for Sukad. Once again, playing futsal for Indah Kembara. Speaking of Kejut, man, it brings back so much memory. Dulu kat transkrian takdak masjid, kami nanti pi smbhyang jumaat kat usm sana. 

Im also thinking of visiting the school in between games. Been like what, 9 years? mesti banyak dah berubah.   Lots of bittersweet memories there and no matter how I don't like to admit it, that short two years stint molded a big part of who I am today. 

Also,

I've been wondering jugak how is everyone doing? Kadang-kadang tu terjumpa jugak afzel kat masjid negeri. Sekali-sekala main futsal nanti terjumpa plak kucai, a junior and nazir, my batchmate whom went back to his old school after a few months. Ouh, met amin once jugak. But all this encounter only goes as far as a handshake, a hug or some empty conversation. Maybe my guard is up and I was being too careful that I put up a huge wall between us. 

The only connection from the transkrian-era I have; of course unintentionally, is fazlisha. Funny story, that one. My long lost penang free friend who's now a contractor has been doing a few jobs for pfs, so he deals a  lot with mama. He asked for my phone number and mama gave it to him. And ever since that, he kept calling  me asking me to play futsal with some other old frees of which I decline countlessly. Macam-macam alasan aku bagi. Hati aku macam 'Ish pasepa la mak aku pi bagi no aku kat denih'. 

Tapi bila dah 20 kali ajak, hati pun jadi lembut. Lagi pun futsal kot. Benda paling best dalam dunia selepas nasik kandaq. And for how long I want to keep avoiding my pfs friends? But of course the cognitive process was much more complex than that. Enough if I say that making the decisions to come out of the closet and to step out of my comfort zone was not a walk in the park. I was bracing myself and putting up a wall just in case for any surprise.

And it couldn't get any more surprising when I saw shah there. Turns out that he happens to be playing with them regularly. Such a sticky situation that I can't easily get out off. But at least Im glad that it was him that I met. We were pretty chummy back in high school, so it's easier to open up to him. So ever since then, we've been playing together. Siap kalau team aku tak cukup orang, aku nanti call dia dtg. He hasn't change much, still has some of his quirks. And he nags a lot whenever I couldnt come join him play.

Okay, logging out now. Pulling an early night cap. Long drive tomorrow. Wish us luck. 

A breather

Now Im on a mid sem break. A much needed breather. Much needed rest. Well not for long. Tomorrow I'm   going to uum, participating in the Futsal LigaIPT. All the training and hard work will be put to test this week. We'll see how we fare in the tournament. Last year was a snafu one for us, since we didn't do much training and preparations. We simply got our ass whooped left and right. But now that we have a new coach, I'm hoping that we could at least put up a good fight.

Real life's been good to me, albeit rather a busy one. I only got two things going on, futsal and studies. Seems little. Pinch of salts. But having wanting to keep my performances at a certain level in both aspects required me to pull an extra weights. I'm feeling good about myself. My studies performance is satisfactory. I'm healthier and fitter. My concentration when studying last longer, and my lung capacity increased, thanks to jeda training and swimming.

I already did two mid term exam and I'm pleased with the way I answered. But there're another two waiting right after the break. Also there're plenty of assignments and presentations to be done. Hopefully I can start doing them when Im finished with my futsal. Please..like I am ever going to be 'finished' with my futsal. But after this liga ipt thingy, im not going to be busy as much. And hopefully I can start hedging more weight on the studies aspect.

That's all for now. Till next time, and wish us luck!