The week that I go gaga

Just came back. Been missing loads of wc games and sleep. I didn’t get to spend much time with Adam too, as I was busy. We’d only managed couple rounds of teh tarik when I got back a few days ago when I went home to restock my baju. He’s back in kl and it’s going to be a while till we meet up again. Orientation week went well. It has been a helluva week. Crazy week. Beladi tiring, but it was worth every sweat and effort.

I’ve got to work along with a bunch of luffly lads and gals. I also got to know more about people whom I couldn’t imagine I would get along with. People like Imad, Qamar, Bob and many more colourful people. If I were to set up a commitee, I would choose them over and over again. In a heartbeat. With them things get easier. Sure, we had clashed of opinions and we had disagreements. We think differently, but we headed in the same directions. Signifying how pure and honest our intention is; bringing the best out of the orientation week.

We also suffered in the financial department. Many thanx to Mr Faizal, Miss Nazleen, Miss Habsah and other lecturers for chipping in their hard earn money to us. Credits to Najwa, Syu, Ernie and the rest for not minding offering their cash in advance when they weren’t even sure whether they get to claim the cash later. lol (which later that week mr wan gave us the good news that we get to claim ‘em). Not to forget the supporting staff (wardens, guards and logistic) for sponsoring delicious meals and free flow of drinks to us. I am truly blessed to have awesome people around, rain or shine, susah or senang.

During the first three days I was an intense one. I didn’t get to enjoy as much as I would like because there were so many things in my mind. Dari sekecik-kecik benda sampaila ke sebesaq-besaq benda. I guess that’s basically were my role, stated in my job description: worrying about things. There were never a second gone by without me thinking and worrying about things. That pretty much explained why I became so giddy, capricious during the performance night. That was the night that I ‘go gaga’. Lol. I let myself go, because there are no more things to worry about.

World Cup sekarang ni dah masuk knock out stage. Cant wait to see the outcome of the matches. Banyak kejutan tournament kali ni. Italy dan Perancis dah out. South Korea and Japan eased through the knock out stage which makes us Asian proud. Tapi tak nampak lagi player yang strike out from the rest. Usually by now, kita dah nampak dah players yang carry the team almost single handedly with their dazzling skills, never-say-die attitude, inspiring leadership and iron man strength. Maybe later.

Noobtard

Selamat pengantin baru to my cousin Ridwan. It was a joyful weekend for the family and relatives. Alhamdulillah everything went well. And this is actually the first time I participated in marriage reception as a responsible adult. I mean, before this the only part of a reception I’ve been involved in was makan, makan and makan. So this time it’s a wee bit different as I was involved in numerous occasions in the wedding. Ridhwan married a Penangite so the receptions were made only a day apart. Hari Sabtu dekat Balik Pulau and hari Ahad dekat Sunshine Banquet Hall.

Mama was the one responsible in making the hantaran, so we the siblings helped her out decorating and stuff. On Saturday, everybody gathered at our house nak shoot off to balik pulau together. After the aqad, the bride’s family brought us to a rented-by-day house so that we could rest while waiting for the bride and the groom to get changed. It was by the river at Kuala Sungai Pinang. The view was breathtaking and awesome. I will definitely go lepak there whenever I’m free during college hours.

And oh, Trueblood season 3 was premiered today and currently I’m downloading the first episode. 250mb more to go, cant wait. Thehee. Been watching all WC matches as well. Some with the family and some with friends. Im getting sick with the girlfriends that my friends brought along with them. What a bunch of noob. World Cup tak ada Manchester United ok? And don’t simply support England because you know Steven Gerrard, John Terry (because of his sex scandal) and Ashley Cole (only because he was Cheryl’s ex-hubbeh). Just because you know them doesn’t mean you can support membabi buta. If you were to support a team do it out of passion, not fame.

Such a mood spoiler. A bunch of noobtard. Im definitely imposing the strictly-no-girlfriend’s ban in our next get together. What a bimbo. Ok Azmil enough. Release your angry chakras. Woo saahh. Woo saaaahhhhh. Speaking of chakras, teringat pasal Full Metal Alchemist. Haha macam mana boleh teringat pasal FMA tah. Chakras-Naruto-Manga-Full Metal Alchemist. Get it? People always ask me how my mind could stretch and escalate from topics to topics, which pissed me off at times. Okay, back to fma. Sadly fma had come to an end. Last Friday was their final volume and another great manga has come to an end. L

Renjis Renjis Dipilis

Hey ya blog. Sorry been busy a wee bit. I had to replace and reschedule all my class for this week and the next week because I'll be away for a while. I'm going to Melaka to attend my bestie's wedding. Ijoy's getting married. Man, why would you waste all the fun by getting married to soon ijoy? Grrr..muda lagi kot! haha. Ijoy and I go wayy back. We were housemate back then along with all other crazy Putatian that I adore and love soo much.

Cilok from FB Ijoi

He's a great lad, understanding in and oddly crazy and annoying way. He's always there for us, just like the rest of the Putatians. And man, I wouldn't trade the experiences we had together with anything else in the world. Ok, nak tulis pasal Ijoy sampai esok pun tak abes. Satgi termenangis sedih plak. Anyway, Ijoy orang Perlis. But we choose to go to the bride's reception in Melaka, since all friends are familiar with Melaka. And this would probably be our last time together since everybody is graduating. Man, I cant wait to see them!

Gambar Cilok jugak. Ijoy is second standing from the right.

Anyway I wish you a great marriage ahead and a great career ahead. Congratulations on your marriage and your graduation Ijoy! Will be spending the night at SP tomorrow, and on Friday after Subuh we'll begin our road trip to Melaka. From SP, we'll singgah KK ambil Pakwan and we're all set. Woot! Melaka here I come!

Unnecessary Spending

Those who says money isn’t everything is not a good shopper. Or so they say. But on the other hands, I’m always broke. So the ‘shopper’ philosophy doesn’t look so hip anymore isn’t it? Haha. I spent recklessly. *sigh* I really need to spend my money wisely as I am coming to my last semester. Have to make sure I still have some money left on me when my Mara’s contract is over while looking for loans or scholarship. An Arabian friend of mine always told me “Nevermind Azmil. Back in our country we always do that. Live like a king for one day, and live poorly and eat sands the next 29 days”. Sounds cool but I don’t think Im up for it.

Being a chain smoker, much of my money are spent on cigarettes. Gosh I really need to kick out this habit. This doesn’t include the occasional expensive cigar I bought when I wanted to celebrate something. Ada benda nak celebrate ja, beli cigar. Beli soft drink and go lepak with my favourite people. Aku pun tak tau sapa yang bawak budaya ni. Even non smoking friends pun smoke cigar. Chauvinist la konon.

Selain tu, aku banyak membazir duit beli Red Bull. Red Bull gives you wings! Haha buat iklan tak berbayar pulak. I don’t know why, but I must start my day with a can of Red Bull. Katala kelas start kul 9, and it’s 9.15, usaha jugak nak singgah kedai kat pekan Balik Pulau nak beli. Heck, aku siap tau lagi mana kedai jual mahal mana kedai jual murah. Ada kedai jual 2.50 ada kedai jual 2.70 ada kedai jual 2.90. Gila obsess. Gila drug addict. Nicotine and caffeine.

Being a sports maniac, I spent large proportion of my money on supplement and gears too. Beli carb, protein bar, vitamins, kasut, jersi, etc. Gila hypocrite. On one hand you take care of yourself etc and on another hand you selfdestruct consuming nic and caff excessively. Haha. Besides the hypocrisy disease, I am suffering from GAS too. Gear Acquisition Sydrome. I have the hots for buying new guitar pedals, amplifiers, and also computer hardwares and softwares. Bukan selalu pun pakai pedal, baik aku beli ja multi effect pedal senang tapi mungkin beli effect pedal satu2 nampak lebih macho dan rock. Samala dengan computer pun. Kalau boleh tiap2 kali PC fair nak ja upgrade hardware. Software pun. Katala aku pakai satu satu software ni v2.0 and v2.1 dah keluar. Punya usaha nak upgrade padahal tak banyak beza pun function and apps dia. Gila kiasu.

Lagi satu. Yang ni aku tau sapa bawak budaya ni. My 7 years old sister. Pantang tengok benda cantik ja mesti nak beli. Yesterday we went to Popular Prangin, nak beli buku. And si kecik tu was browsing through the stationery section. Being the manipulative brat, she convinced me to buy her this odd looking getah pemadam. Ada banyak sangat bentuk taktau nak pilih mana satu and we end up buying all 12 shapes! Tapi yang excited lebihnya aku, bukan adik aku. Grr. That brat. But still, I love her heaps

What? Ada banyak benda nak padam okay! I jot down many important stuff koott. And I figured I do the world a favour by recycling paper. Haiz..

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Obligatory Updates

1. Chelsea won the FA Cup, completing their domestic double. While I enjoyed Chelsea's success, I am also sad to see Portsmouth losing. They are relegated to the Championship division next season and the only memorable thing that they could give to their fan was by winning the FA Cup. Unfortunately they didn't, albeit at some point of the match they should lead when they were awarded a penalty. Boateng failed to score from the spot and a few minutes later, Chelsea scored. Tough luck Pompey, and hope to see you back in the Premier League the next season!

2. Baroness Warsi becomes the first Muslim woman to serve in the cabinet in Britain. Pilihan raya baru-baru ni memaksa Gordon Brown letak jawatan PM dan diambil alih oleh David Cameron. So with the conservative party taking over, Warsi was appointed as the Minister Without Portfolio in Cameron's first cabinet. Lebih kurang macam Datuk Sri Idris Jala la. Anyway, Im not sure whether she's a practising muslim or a non-practising muslim. Hmmmhh

3. Beladi hell, aku fail cooper test semalam. In 12 minutes I only managed to run 2450 metres. My personal best was like 3000 metres. :( I really should work on my fitness.

4. Selamat hari guru to all teachers who had touched my souls and lighten up my day in every possible ways. This goes to all my primary and secondary teachers no matter where there are right now. Haha as if la they read my blog. zzz. Wished I could send you all cards or bangkai cicak (cerita lain) but Im broke and too old to spend my time catching one. :(

Shutting them up

One word. Overjoyed. Overjoyed to see my brother received countless of offers to pursue his tertiary education. Adam had to go down a different path in his academic world. Unlike me, I was given the luxury and bless by Allah to do well in my studies. But Adam is different. He has difficulty in studying. However, Adam is special. He is blessed with multiple talents in sports.

In this country that prioritize academic achievement, the future looks bleak for Adam. Albeit, he never gives up. I remembered years ago, when Adam got his UPSR result. He cried. He asked what is wrong with him. He asked why cant he be like me, but we convinced him that Allah has better plans for him. And indeed it was true.

Walaupun result UPSR Adam tak elok, dia berjaya masuk Penang Free; sekolah yang semua ahli keluarga lelaki aku attend. Kalau ikut result dia tak layak masuk, tapi disebabkan Penang Free ada sign memorandum pembangunan sukan dengan Persatuan Kriket Melayu Malaysia, Adam was offered a place. My mother is a teacher dekat Penang Free. Sometimes my mom got hurt when she listened to some cikgu2 menggelabah yang buat PFS-hanya-untuk-budak-pandai-anak-hang-pandaikah punya remark. Ada jugak yang pandai2 kata Adam got through because guna kabel (masa tu bapak aku Pegawai Pendidikan Daerah). Macam-macam.

These beladi comments shattered Adam's motivation. But we family stood together. Sikit-sikit, Adam prove to them that PFS needs him more than he needs PFS. Dia harumkan nama sekolah. Dia menang tournament tu, dia menang tournament ni. Often, his team makes the news in the newspaper. He played for the state, and even for the country. Heck he was the first malay to be appointed as the Penang captain. And he delivers well. Under his leadership Penang won the MSSM tournament for the first time in their history. He was also the skipper for the country. Little by little people stopped questioning.

But still, Adam was worried. Playing crickets has taken its toll on him. It requires him to travel a lot, domestically and internationally. Therefore he had to miss class and studies. Some people, instead of being supportive try to break my mom by saying that sports is not going to get Adam anywhere. Mak mana yang tak tersinggung bila orang kata kat anak dia, but she's tougher than ever. We kept our faith, and support him all the way. Alhamdulillah, Adam did well in his SPM.

Apart from receiving tons of offers, Kriket Melayu also offered him a scholarship to study in UKM. The best thing is, he can pick any course he wants offered there. And yes, a degree course. Tak payah go through matrik, stpm or diploma.

Sounds too good to be true, isn't it? The whole family is happy for him. Adam had successfully silent his critics. He proves them wrong. He shut them up. We showed that by having faith and belief, we can achieve anything we want. Adam, I am so proud of you. You always tell me how much you envied me, but in truth it's the other way around. I have a great deal of envy and respect in you too. But you have to remember, this is just the beginning. Lots of things coming your way, so work hard okay? I cant talk to you verbally because you know...kita laki. Susah kita nak cakap bab-bab macam ni face to face. Tak macho aahh. Hehe. Have a great journey ahead and choose the offers wisely.

ok cun.

Competitions

Okay let's face it. We compete in life. Sapa lagi cantik, sapa lagi pandai, sapa lagi kaya, sapa lagi banyak tembak orang awam yang menaiki kenderaan , sapa lagi hebat dan mcm-mcm lagi. Ciri-ciri competitiveness bagi aku ialah:

1. Super Kiasu- Tak boleh mengaku kalah langsung.

2. Kalau seseorang tu tau something, sedaya upaya dia sorok/tak bagitau. Kedekut ilmu.

3. Terlalu busybody ambik tau pasal prestasi arch enemy dia.

4. Jealous tak bertempat bila orang lain lebih dari dia especially arch enemy dia.

5. Sanggup main kotor, semata-mata nak lebih/menang.

Semua orang competitive dalam dunia ni. Me included. Tapi the degree of competitiveness tu kita yang tentukan. The question lies in "In what field should we get competitive and in what field we shouldn't?". We have to answer that questions and decide. I'm not saying that competitiveness is bad or competitiveness is good. I'm saying neither. Bagi aku dua-dua pun ada kelebihan dan kekurangan dia. Sebab tu aku percaya yang kita perlu mengalokasikan darjah kompetitif kita.

Aku tadak keja tadi, so aku berjaya list down bidang apa yang aku competitive dan bidang apa yang aku tak competitive.

Competitive

Bola Sepak/Futsal

Bab ni memang aku competitive. Aku memang tak boleh kalau orang lebih daripada aku. Aku sakit ati. Kalau ada budak dok menunjuk-nunjuk depan aku dia punya skill joga bonito dalam game, memang aku aim budak tu untuk beat dia. Selalu Kadang-kadang ada gak la main kotor. Aku tarik baju, tolak, buat high tackle, tarik an* dia dan macam2 lagi. (tapi make sure referee tak nampak la) Bukan bab main sahaja, bab sokong pun aku competitive. Aku cukup benci bila team yang aku sokong kalah. Tu dia. haha. Bola sepak tu macam maruah aku. Orang boleh kutuk apa saja pasal aku, tapi jangan insult aku punya bola sepak.

Dota.

One of my favourite game is Defense of the Ancients. Aku selalu main Dota melalui pelantar Garena. Melalui software tu, aku boleh main Dota dengan gamer2 lain dari seluruh Malaysia. And of course, bila main game, kutuk mengutuk perkara biasa. Aku salah hang, hang salah aku. Macam-macam. Perkataan yang salu orang pakai dalam Dota is noob. Noob tu macam perkataan newbie la tp teruk sket. Aku cukup marah kalau apek-apek cina dalam dota panggil aku noob. Bagi aku, aku lebih rela kalau depa mencarut kat aku daripada panggil aku noob. Aku tak reti nak explain camna, cuma gamer2 hardcore ja paham. hehe. Tu dia.

Tak competitive.

Study.

Aku memang tak suka competition in studies. Bila aku masuk MRSM, aku di diperkenalkan dengan sistem class streaming. Yang pandai dok kelas Alpha. Yang kurang pandai dok kelas Delta. Aku memang benci gila dengan sistem ni. Sebab tu la ramai orang kena tangkap meniru time exam. Pressure to compete tu tinggi sangat. Sampai la skarang, aku tak pernah fikir nak compete. Aku tak pernah rasa terancam kalau someone beat aku. Bagi aku, aku tak perlu nak score highest, cukup la lepas nak dapat A. I dont concentrate on others, instead I just concentrate on myself to do well. I dont care how well others did, as long as I did the best I could. Watpa nak kaypo pasal orang lain? And aku sentiasa share dengan kawan-kawan aku kalau aku tau something. Ada orang tu kiasu sangat, bila dia tau something dia takmau bgtau kawan2 dia, padahal dia tau pun sebab dia pi jumpa lecturer.

Sembang.

Orang panggil sembang kencang, atau sembang tak jatuh, atau sembang kuat, atau sembang deshu-deshu (deshu2 tu bunyi angin) dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Lumrah. Orang lelaki bila dia bersembang, dia suka emphasize dia punya status. "Aku ada girlfriend hot, aku ada motor laju, aku ada banyak duit, aku bila pi lepak gym semua pompuan usha aku". Mcm2 benda yang boleh dicakapkan. Kadang-kadang tu boleh nampak sangt yang depa tengah lawan, bukan sembang. Dalam department ni aku tak competitive sangat. I prefer humbleness. Cewah. Haha. Walk the walk and talk the talk. I prefer others to do the talking for me. I don tell my tales, I let others tell my tales. :D Walaupun crita aku boleh 'menang' and lagi 'kuat' dari cerita mat-mat sembang deras ni, aku akan diam.

Actually banyak lagi, tapi aku rasa macam lagi banyak aku crita lagi terbukak pekung di dada. Ahaha. Malu weh. So enough la. Till then

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sabbatical

hey blog hows it going? currently im on sabbatical. well it's not going to be a long one i supposed since i'm going to start working and all. it's going to be a long holiday and it seems like everybody is searching for a job. Me included. So seperti cuti sem-sem yang lepas, i'll be teaching. Tuitions for any STPM subjects and also music classes.

Tapi kali ini aku agak relax, sbb aku tak perlu nak buat promotions and marketing thingy, since most my regular customers are returning. Nak wat camna aku pndai ajar. Ok aku tipu. Bukan sebb aku pandai ajar, tapi sbb aku handsome. Ok lagi sekali aku tipu. Pasepa aku suka sangat menipu bila berblog nih haish..haha. Most lessons yang aku ajar aku wat one to one session. Aku memang tak amik group lesson. Sebab bila mengajar one to one, baru bleh mengorat. Eh bukan, sbb bila mengajar one to one baru la effective. haha lousy save.

Ada la kawan2 yang ajak kerja hotel la, kerja restaurant la, kerja menghiburkan hati datin-datin kesepian la, dan lain-lain. Macam best je kerja dengan kawan2 tapi..let's face it. Aku pemalas. Aku bukan yang jenis suka kerja 9 to 5 atau yang kerja shift. Tambah-tambah pulak World Cup is coming. Mana boleh miss satu match pun. Bila aku kerja sendiri, aku boleh postpone, ganti, replace class aku bila-bila masa aku suka. That's the kind of freedom yang aku nak. woot!

Apart from that, cuti ni aku boleh main banyak match. Lagi banyak match aku main, lagi banyak allowance coach aku bagi. Double woot!. Ok enough. Ngantuk. Zzzzzzzz

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The Cinderella Story

I cant help but applauded Fulham for entering the final of the Europa League. They entered Europa League after they finished seventh in the Barclay's Premier League last season. Fulham really had come a long way to be where there are now. It has been 12 years after Mohamed Al-Fayed revolution takeover on Fulham and look where there are.

Fulham is just an average club, compared to the likes of Manchester United and Liverpool. But it's tradition and history is just as rich as their counterparts. They 'climbed up' to the Premier League, from Division 3 -> Division 2 -> Division 1 -> Premier League. To gain promotions to higher division is never easy, but they managed to do it in just 5 years. Playing in the Premier League with the 'big boys' is just as hard. They struggled to survive in the Premier League.

But after almost 8 years playing in the Premier League, things are getting better. With the appointment of Roy Hodgson, Fulham is quickly becoming a respected team not just in England, but also in Europe.

Orang mungkin pandang depa sebelah mata. Europa Cup ja, bukan Champions League pun but still I found it a heck of an achievement. Fulham do not have much spending power like Chelsea or Manchester United. Dan tengok lineup pemain depa. Bobby Zamora, Damien Duff, Dempsey, Zoltan Gera-yang mana mereka ini bukanlah dikategorikan sebagai pemain bertaraf dunia.

Tapi dalam Europa Cup, dalam perjalanan ke final depa beat Juventus (Italian powerhouse), Shaktar Donetsk (juara Europa League tahun lepas), Wolfsburg (juara liga Jerman tahun lepas), AS Roma (juga Italian powerhouse) dan baru-baru di semi-final di mana depa buat comeback ke atas Hamburg. Team yang depa beat semua pernah menang Liga di negara masing-masing. Can you imagine?

All in all, everybody played a part. They have a great coach, great mentality, great fans, great discipline. Everybody contributes towards reaching their first ever european final. It was an emotional moment for me, when I watched them played Juventus. They need to score at least 3 goals to win. They are losing but the fans keep cheering on and the players never gave up. At last they won the game in style. Their adventure in this season's Europa League has been an inspiration for me.

This 'Cinderella Story' spurs me on. Makes me believe in 'magic'. It makes me believe that no matter how helpless or how weak we are, we can achieve anything- as long as we believe in it.

Between the lines

I dont have many friend. But I have enough. And most importantly, I know in a heartbeat that these few friends of mine will always be there for me through thick or skin. No matter how far or how less we talk each day. Our friendship grew through time, and it didnt require us to bond in order for it to become stronger.

I dont believe in berkawan biar seribu. I choose who gets to be my friends and who doesnt. I think it is important because by becoming friends, we entered a covenant agreeing to commit and support each other. And I dont want to mess it up by just 'signing' up to the covenant. I do not want to commit to things that aren't any of my interest and on unnecessary things. Pretty much waste of time, I'd say.

There are lines and boundaries in friendship that you cannot cross. One being 'do not betray them just to score some chick you hardly know'. If you want to make yourself look good, ask help from your friends. Dont go running around badmouthing your friends just to make yourself look good. Beladi pis of sheed. And also, if you are hitting on your mate's old flame, asked if he's okay with it or simply just keep you mouth shut. You dont go bragging to others, as if she's already yours.

Because, now that you didnt just lose her, you've also lose a friend. I came upon this quote saying 'Lovers have a right to betray you... friends don't'. That tells it all. Friends are there for each other through the end but lovers come and go. I do not want to justify much as I've been compromised. Only a person as damaged as me would see through this logic haha.

Ok, off to watch footy. See you blog.

Ok cun

Rawr Rawr

Hello blog. My name's Azmil. Nice to meet you, blog. lmao. I decided to give you another try. Im not trying to gain money, or anything like that. The reason why I think I should blog again is to serve me as a time capsule. Maybe after a few years, when I look back, I'd have this blog to help me walk the aisle of memory lane together. Im not expecting readers apatah lgi followers but if you do visit, please dont flame me at the comment section. ><

And this time, Im hoping that I can stick with you for a long time, blog. I admit one of the things that I regret the most was deleting my friendster's blog. Sebab all post since waaaayyyy back in 2004 habes mcmtu ja. Dengan ini juga, cewah 'dengan ini' rofllmao aku mengumumkan penggantungan akaun twitter aku. Aku rasa malas nak twit sbb I cant find anything clever enough to say in 140 characters, and sbb aku bukan artis and rutin harian aku cukup membosankan dan cukup predictable. Aku suspend ja, aku tak delete terus. Aku takut nyesal cam aku delete friendster blog aku dulu. haizz..

Currently undergoing final examinations. First 3 papers aku agak merelaxkan since aku tak payah nak target A untuk dapat A. Carry marks agak chantek.lol. last 2 paper yang agak cuak, PM and OB. argh enough rambling about exams. Im off to see Inter-Barcelona. See you blog.

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